I am a 32 year old public health professional and I feel like the biggest hypocrit on Earth because I don't look the part. For many years, I have struggled with my weight. The struggle is attached to several emotional things. Yet, today, I am tired of the excuses that I have created for myself. Although I knew that I had "let myself go", I saw some pictures of myself today from a conference
I am a 32 year old public health professional and I feel like the biggest hypocrit on Earth because I don't look the part. For many years, I have struggled with my weight. The struggle is attached to several emotional things. Yet, today, I am tired of the excuses that I have created for myself. Although I knew that I had "let myself go", I saw some pictures of myself today from a conference that I attended a couple of weeks ago and I have spent about an hour weeping at what I have allowed myself to become. I began P90X on Sunday, June 14, 2009 and I feel really proud of myself for just starting. I suck right now, but I am looking forward to my progression and transformation.
I am perceived as very confident and self-assured, but I am so far from that because I feel as if I am zipped inside of this fat suit and I just want to hide, but there is no hiding place.
I am a Mississippi native, a Georgia implant, and a current Louisiana resident. I love to cook. I eat with guilt hidden in every single bite. However, I love to watch others eat my food and enjoy it. I'm my mother's only child and my dad's only daughter. I wish to become a mother one day, but I want to be a healthy, fit mom.
I look forward to a great transformation both inside and out. God knows I sure do need it!
