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My story has evolved over the last few years. There was a time when I had such a screwed up view of food that I didn't think I would EVER be where I am today!
In highschool I started starving myself, I thought if I were "thin" enough all my problems would go away and everything would be perfect. This was my thought for many, many years. After a year of starving I couldn't take it anymore and switched to Bingeing on huge amounts of Junk food and then throwing it up, i.e. Bulimia. I suffered from Bulimia for about 7 years. I would sometimes Binge and Purge up to 10 times a day. I hated myself, my body and my life. After highschool I floundered and then joined the Navy as a Rescue Swimmer. I wanted the most physically active job I would get to help me lose weight. I excelled at the physical part of the job- most of the time doing more push-ups and sit-ups than the men. I have always loved to workout, and have run regularly since I was 14 yo. However, my eating was still horrible and I wold still Binge and purge so my weight only increased. I felt tired, sick and horrible most of the time because I was either starving myself or overeating.
I met my Husband while I was in the Navy and we were married 6 months after our first date. He is truly my soul mate and excepted me and my eating issues, though he didn't understand why I had such food issues. He is my biggest supporter in my quest for health.
I soon started drinking to help my depression. And I thought I could avoid eating if I drank all night. I was soon drinking way too much- I blacked out a few times and was even drinking in the morning. My weight was at an all time high of 156 pounds on my 5'5" frame and I felt sick and tired. I sought treatment and went into rehab for Alcohol dependancy and bulimia; I was medically discharged from the Navy. In rehab I learned a lot and once out I never abused alcohol again.
Right out of rehab I got pregnant with my 1st child. This miracle gave me the permission to treat myself right. I ate healthy and started walking everyday. I felt awesome being pregant, It was the healthiest I had ever been. After my son was born I still struggled to lose weight. I relasped with my bulimia, although it was not as severe as previously. I also tried slimfast, Atkins and fasting to lose weight- Yuck! Nothing worked and I actualy gained weight. I quickly got pregant with baby #2. Again I ate healthy and exercised and had a great pregnancy.
After my 2nd child was born I really comitted myself to working out and eating better. I trained for and ran 2 marathons. I then became pregnant with baby #3. When baby #3 was 3 months old- in Jan 2007, I started marathon training again. I also read a sports nutrition book and ate better. I ran 3 marathons and a 50K this year. I have finally lost the 30 pounds I struggled with for so long.
I am now at the point where I am ready to take the final steps in my quest for health. I have chosen P90X to help me transform my body even more. I am also following the Balanced Slim Down plan from the website. I am ready to kick processed foods and white suger (exacly the kind of foods I used to binge on) out of my life forever.
I know I will reach my goal, I have the dedication and drive to get there. I have also been to the bottom and I like the view from the top much better!