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When I was growing up I had no concept of what my body looked like, or how healthy I was as a teen and pre-teen. I always felt bigger than the other girls , which I was (I matured early). Additionally, my mother was very obese, had very poor eating habits, and suffered from depression most of my life (my father died when I was 6). I totally picked up all my mothers bad eating habits, especially her sweet tooth indulgences...for "special occasions" (but everything was a special occasion).

When I graduated from high school I was a slightly chunky 145 lb. 5'3" girl. When I went to college it was the first time I had ever been separated from my twin sister. She went into the military and I went to the local university. Being separated from her was really tough for me and I became mildly depressed. I gained 40 pounds my first year of college (went up to 185) without even breaking a sweat and without even noticing. Again...I had no concept of my body and continued to indulge in whatever I wanted. Before I knew it I was 215 pounds...my biggest ever. At that point I looked at myself and convinced myself that maybe I could lose a little weight, but I was just destined to be a obese forever. That it was in my blood because I had inherited it. I had given myself a "forever" sentence of being the "Big Girl". The problem was I didn't FEEL like a "Big Girl" on the inside!!!!!! I yearned to be small. Over the course of 3 years I did manage to lose a little weight, but was still very obese.

In 2007, pushing a size 18, I weighed in officially at 198 lbs. I decided to try to get control. I was sick of everything. I was sick of being fat, sick of having no self esteem, sick of not feeling attractive, just SICK OF IT. I started running, doing basic exercises, and got control of my food intake. I lost about 30 lbs and have hovered between 170 and 180 for 2 years. I was a still a big girl on the outside, but that little girl inside of me yearned to be known. But I continued to be one of those people who believed I didn't have it in me to lose the weight. I believed that I could do all the exercises and eat right, but the weight would stay on. I believed I could never encompass the perseverance necessary to lose that much weight. I never wanted to go to the gym either because I totally believed the lie that you had to be "fit" in order to go to the gym. So I did nothing for a long time.

About 4 months ago my sister and brother-in-law discovered Power90 and started doing the program. I saw their results after 3 weeks and wanted in. My eating had gotten out of control again. I was snacking all the time and I could feel the pounds creeping back on an oz. at a time. I decided to see if maybe the little girl on the inside might actually come out. I felt like I was taking a plunge, but also like I was about to climb a colossal mountain and face some really big giants. I was both nervous and excited!

I started the Power90 exercise program and regained control of my diet at 173 lbs. It's been 90 days and I lost 30 pounds and 39.5 in. around my body, 6 of those off my waist. I went from a size 16 pants, Day 1 to a size 8, Day 90. I'm officially below my High School graduation weight, and I feel better, healthier, and more confident in myself than I EVER have!!! I look at myself in the mirror and can't believe that it's me. I look back at my before pictures and can't believe that was me. I can't believe how unhappy and mean I looked in all my before pictures. It's just not me!!! I've always seen myself as a happy, joyful person and that person that I've always felt like on the inside is finally out! Thanks Beachbody!!! I've just started Turbo Jam and am so incredibly eager to see those results!!! I'll continue to track my success and my story here:-)