Team Beachbody Guest

Most of my life I have tried to stay fit and active, but was always trying to lose "5 or 10 pounds". I spent a lot of time unhappy with how I looked, so I would diet too much, then lose all my energy and then fall face first into a gallon of ice cream. Repeat cycle day after day, year after year. Yo-yo-yo-yo.
Eventually, I gave up trying to lose weight and started to focus on my energy levels. i started eating more and running and even signed up for some races.I gained about 5 pounds, but could keep running for more than 20 minutes. I loved how I felt, even if I still didn't like how I looked.

But over the last year I've had some physical and personal battles to face which have left me a little beaten down and depressed, which led to a lethargic lifestyle. i tore my achilles and i couldn't run so i sat on my butt. i lost my desire to eat healthy so i chowed down on
junk while sitting on my butt. Then, because i felt so fat and gross, i sat on
my butt some more, withdrew from relationships and ate more junk just to
really prove i was no longer fit and healthy. Stupid, i know, but it just
becomes such a vicious cycle. So i started p90x lean on Feb 7 '09 to give me a
way to feel like i was really working out while still hovering near the couch. I grumbled through the first week, resigned myself to the second week, and by the third week, feeling stronger, I embraced it as part of my daily routine. My achilles became less painful, and my leg strength returned. I felt better protected from injury, which spurred me to venture onto the bike once in a while too, and eventually to try running again.
I did heal, slowly, and I finally feel like a runner again, having run 26.2 in Indianapolis this fall '09! I am now working out to P90x, TurboJam, and yoga, as well as running 20-30 miles a week. I still want to lose "5 more pounds", and maybe that will come next. Or maybe it won't, but that is ok too.

Because I know that even though P90X is intended for 90 days, i am looking at a much bigger picture. i want to feel energetic and athletic.
i want to be proud of my body -- not just how it looks, but more about what it can do - its strength and speed and posture and fitness. And that is a process to enjoy for a lifetime.